It seems lately that everywhere I turn I find a superhero. If it’s not Natalie on her bike…
Then it’s Allison’s life-size rendition of “Wonder Girl…”
I didn’t expect to see so many superheros until Malachi was a bit older! But, I think I know where it’s coming from. Their new favorite show is PBS’ “Word Girl.” How funny that they took to it so much!
Lately I’ve been wishing I had super powers! I wish there was one of me to keep the house clean, one of me to make healthy meals, one of me to workout, one of me to spend time playing with each of the kids, one of me to plan for school, one of me to…. well, you get the idea. I know I’m not alone; this is the cry of every mom, right? Oh, and one of me to sleep for 12 hours straight! 🙂
Tomorrow is the first day of school. I am mostly planned, but not totally. Oh, how I wish I was totally planned! But, I am honestly trying to be ok with where I am, and to live by faith; not fear that I’ll never get a handle on things, or fear that I’ll never sleep again. If I wrote this post last night, I think I would have to say that fear was winning. I was overwhelmed and overcome.
Today I prayed as I always start my prayers… “Jesus, thank you for today.” Then it hit me; this is a new day. I feel empowered… not that I can get it all done, but that God will help me through it. It is good for my kids to witness my weaknesses and to hear me confess that I need God more than anything. That happened last night. For the first time ever, all 4 were crying and needing me at the same time. (And not minor whimpers, mind you, but major “I need YOU” wails!) I snuck off into the bathroom and cried. I called my husband to pray for me. I couldn’t stop… I walked out and had to face them crying with my own sobs. It was not fun. But, we talked… and then my 2 oldest talked and I listened as they talked themselves to sleep. Natalie was asking Allison who God the Spirit was, and Allison answered the best she could. It was precious. Tough times certainly cause us to ponder and think deeper and to call out to the only One who can really help.
“This is the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24